So yesterday my husband hands me the title to our Ford Escape which we originally bought for me but gave to my daughter when she turned 16 and told me I needed to fill out the paperwork to have it transferred into Courtney's name. I know it's time, she's going to be 22 in May and just got her RN license and job but my heart still fell. I told him that if I did the paperwork, that it is just one step closer to her leaving us. She just finished college in December, got a job in the NICU at RRMC and passed her NCLEX in February. She's making enough to be comfortably on her own. But I don't want her to go. She is such an extension of myself that I feel like I'm being torn in two. People always said we were like the Gilmore Girls, we have fun together, like the same stuff, can finish each other's sentences... My husband is ready for it to be just the 2 of us since our son Ben moved out shortly after graduation last year. It's never been just the 2 of us. I have no idea how to act. What will we do together? What will we talk about? What if he finds me boring? I mostly am a homebody. I love reading, watching TV and planning stuff that I never actually do (I am the spokesperson for Procrastinators R Us). What to do??? I've always lived for my kids, revolved my life around them. Makes me wonder what else there is out there that I would like.
I guess this blog is going to be about letting go, embracing life and loving with all my heart. Hope ya'll enjoy the ride.....
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