Today I had a memory that involved you. I was remembering when we were watching the giraffe give birth and try to write dads obituary and I started laughing and I immediately thought to call you and share the laugh with you and I realized  you're gone. It's still hurts a lot. There's been a couple of days when I stopped running and I cried so much. I still can't wrap my brain around the fact I will never see you again. My heart literally feels like it's been ripped out of my chest. That’s such a funny thing about the heart. When you hurt it hurts but this has nothing to do with the physical part of your heart. How does your emotions have the ability to access this organ in your body so dramatically? When you're happy it leaps for joy and when you're sad it feels like it's being crushed. I cherish those voicemail messages I kept from you and dad because I have both of you telling me that you love me. I will keep them forever because when I need to know that I was loved, I have those words coming from your mouth. There are so many people who have suffered loss graver that I have and I'm amazed that they can still put one foot in front of the other when there are days that I feel like I can't move or take another step. I miss y’all.